Friday, November 18, 2011

9gag fever

Another fever is hitting the cyber community - 9gag.

If you don't have any idea what it is.... you are still safe!

It is very addictive... I am one of the latest victim who lost my soul to that site.

The post, some of them are funny; sarcastic; mean; confusing(?); well, most of the time, we tend to laugh at ourselves, of our silliness.
I bet some of you guys are also the victim/latest victim of 9gag.
anyway, any ex-victim around???

Well, you had been warned!!!

p/s hope my 1 week vacation to my hometown can cure me of this craziness
It always does!! 
Will it this time???

Friday, November 11, 2011

nothg special happen.... =.="
wait wat happen tonite......

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Queer as Folk

Watching "Queer as Folk" season 1 in youtube. I think of all the gay people out there..... I am 1 of the rare case that never watch it.......

Watching "Brian and Justin Story" to be more particular.

Time to type my thesis again later on.

**Still doubt that I can hand in my thesis for this semester......

For those who haven't watch it.... here is the first episode.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Today (銀巴士 - Silverbus)





Today is the day, I no longer have you....

A soothing song to be listen at....
But not a good song to cheer ur heart-broken buddy...

Monday, October 3, 2011

Rarely seen

Today went to watch movie (wow, this month and last month really watched a lot of movies) again at Mines... This time, watching "The Sorcerer and the White Snake"

yada, yada, good movie. Important part is not at this movie. For some who don't know the story, it is about forbidden love between demon??/ snake spirit?? and human. So, can expect that it is a sad movie.

There are 2 girls sitting in front of me. They laughed when watching the movie. Then there are 2 guys sitting next to me..... instead they cried and wept when watching this movie. BTW, they are cute!!

Now question arise..... my busybody mode suddenly activated... or maybe u can say it is my think-too-much mode

Thinking back, it is not fair to say guys are less sensitive than girls. But, normal guys always like to act tough and refused to cry in front of others... *act macho kononnya

Now do you cry when you watched movie?

** I think those 2 should be a couples...... becos, there is 1 time, I saw both of them hold the others hand while watching it.......

But rarelt will i see guys cried while watching a movie... let alone in a cinema.....

 Wish them a happy future and everlasting relationship... full with love. though I dunno them, but, wish them all the best......
*** hate to see other people cries... especially guys.... but for this case, I thk most of us understand why they cried......

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Nasi Lemak 2.0

Erm, watched it with my friend last Saturday.

To be frank, I am not a big fan of Namewee and if I am all alone, I won't even think of watching this movie. However, I am glad I watched it.

It had been long time since Malaysian Chinese movie industry make a good movie. Starting from last year's Tiger Woohoo! Then we have Lelio Popo. Beginning this year, we had another great movie, Great Day, a deeply touching movie. At first, my friend and I, all agree that, "to watch good Malaysian's made Chinese movie, we have to wait for Chinese New Year", I was almost correct. Well, almost 1 month ago, I also watch another super dissappointing Chinese Movie made in Malaysia (Collaboration of HK, China, Singapore and Malaysian movie) - I love Wing Chun...... grrrrr thinking why I watched it make my heart burns. The worst movie I ever spent my RM13 on after "The Happening", (at least now I think "The Happening" is better).

Well there is a lot of review and critics on this movie. (some made by bias people who supported/detest this highly controversial Namewee). But, I would highly recommend, watch this movie and judge it with your own heart. 

Anyway, tomorrow is Malaysia Day. So, happy holidays guys. 

Monday, August 29, 2011

Selamat Hari Raya

*guling* *guling**guling*



Oh hi!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Aildifitri!!!

If at home, I have few relatives and family friends whom we must visit anually and my mum never visit them empty handed....... must bake cakes or buy drinks, and I hate it when she bakes cake.... becos I have to help her like....... non-stop for 3 days??? Beat eggs, potong raisins, san cha beng, etc etc etc.......

Then starting last year, I use *busy in UPM* excuse not to be at home either for CNY or Hari Raya.... I am such a bad sons...... things is...... tak perlular masak kuih, just buy drinks for them enough mah...... but sometimes... I miss the feeling of helping her at home.. doing chores......

Talking about Hari Raya, to me..... satay is a must lor.... why? becos I love satay!!! I remember in my degree year, I went to my lecturer house.... I eat up 60 cucuk...... (I din touch any lemang, ketupat or curry... just satay) but out of 5 house only 1 have satay. I want my fatty satay!!!! However, Ketupat, lemang and curry rendang will always be available....

Now...... Checking whom I can visit for Raya....... A... in Johore (cross)....... B...... in Sarawak (cross).....Ei are there anyone of you staying in KL whom I can visit?????



Ah.... nvm...... go to Berjaya Times Square and watch movies ba....... marathon lagi..... alone lagi..... almost same with my CNY celebration for these 2 years.



Or shud I packed to go visit other states? But too sudden...... and as a poor student..... kinda.... luxurious to me....... (Haven't gone to Genting to refill my wallet for N years)

Or shud I go to genting and try my luck?

Ekkkkk.......... being lonely.... away from home..... away from anyone........ is too much of freedom.... but choosing home and freedom..... I choose freedom. But maybe I will be home for this year X'mas and next year CNY. I dun knw.

Okay now.

back to my normal routine when I am hou chat sienz mode......



Friday, August 26, 2011

Football: Why I loved it.

I used to love football a lot. Watching EPL a lot. My first interest came during World Cup 2002 in Korea/Japan. I learnt most of the terms and also many teams that time too. My favorite team had always been Arsenal and their players that i liked the most are David Seaman and Thierry Henry (both are now no longer in Arsenal)
David Seaman retired and Thierry Henry is currently playing in US.

Not many gay people like football with many reasons. But I do like them for some. hehehe, dunno if this post will change your opinion on them.

1st, those cute or handsome football player.
Seeing them scoring goal or taking the ball. Or being tackle or doing some funny movement on field.
The most famous of these players is David Beckham.... But I never liked him though.

Few names you shud look at are :
When he is In AC Milan (now he is playing in Real Madrid)

Cristiano Ronaldo

Roque Santa Cruz

Fernando Torres

and many more.

2. Funny/rare scene and lucky if you able to watch it live

3. The goals
I always like Thierry Henry goal scoring when he is in Arsenal :)

I think thats all for this post :)

Happy Weekend guys.

Now, what is your favorite sport? And who do you like or have crush on?

To some football may be barbaric game where 20 players snatching 1 ball from each other. But looking things at different side may be good too. It can be a way to mingle with more people.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


Life is a story about you. There are 2 types of story : The one that you decide; and the 1 that decide yours.

How you live your life? Is it the one that you want, or the one that your parents wished for you?

If you never come out to your parents that you're gay, and they arrange a marriage for you, will you just go ahead and marry that girl? or reveal your sexuality - risking the fact that they will hate you/ disown you, thinking you will bring shame to the family? What will you do?
*Not saying i am having arranged marriage or what just an example

 If you study so long, got a degree, got a master, a PhD. But u failed to get a job. What will you do? Keep on jobless? Creating job? or apply for those with lower salary? Or doing job that match ur requirement but you don't like - i.e be a lecturer?

So, how's your life story now? Is it the one that you liked? The one that you want? or the one that you are forced to live in?  If that so, how are you going to do? Just let nature take it course or try to change it? Or, pause a while, and see the goodness in it and thanks God that in fact, you are not having the worst life a person can have. Thx God that you are with someone who can share your life and thx Him for having the luck to find him, to have him as part of your life.

Love life, social life, working/studying life, all will have problem no matter what. Be thankful? Change it in hope for a better? forever sulking if you think your life sucks, that's up to individual to decide.

Mine? Satisfy for what it is now. Love life? I just pull my heart out and put it nicely inside a box and bury it far far. maybe 1 day, I will dug it back out or someone will dig it and return it back to me.

*Start to dun care if ppl say I am gay or not liao. When my wings are strong and I can fly alone, I will just tell my mum that marriage are too troublesome. got history in my family where there are ppl who din get married their whole life or get married at late 40's.

If people ask are you gay? what is your response?
Mine will be, yes I am. - even to my mum or my dad. -> since she asked, thats mean she is ready to accept any of my answer. whatever the consequence is, I dont care liao, Muahahahahahaha... Only if she asked.

Saturday, August 20, 2011


It's really had been a very long while since I update my blogs. Those busy days, unstable emotion, indecisive draft to post and also a lot of obstacle..... blame them all.... Wait, now it comes back... blame back to me.. Hahahahaha

Today was super fun and super cool.

Finally I met him in person, during his surprise birthday party. Ya, tulsy, happy belated birthday to you again. Hahaha, princess of the night was very speechless when he enter the house. (I think either he is a very good actor or he really didn't expect the magnitude of the surprise or he dunno about the surprise party at all). But the surprise was..... somehow.... did not reach the climax that we thought it would...... He stood outside, dancerboy opened the door and we are like "Surprise?" Instead of "SURPRISE!!!!" Ahahahaha, first time ma, ahahahha.

Met a lot of bloggers in person too and they are all awesome. Lil Fox, Jason-is-a-he, Cheffy Ric, Khai, Cloud 9, Bubu and of course Tuls! First thing I do when Lil Fox reveal himself is a quick hug to him. It is rare for me to hug someone tho.

Tuls' present is a good enough to host the party. And he did his best entertaining the guests.
Good job to Dancerboy on throwing this surprise party.
and yeah, they are tall!!!!

was very happy of the invitation becos in my whole life, this is like second party tat I joined and the first 1 was like.... when I was in primary 5? Well, all those makan-makan steambot or restaurant besar-besar are not counted as birthday party okay. I did attended to some frens birthday but it is more like my family fren's function, so, as involving only myself (without family), this is definitely 1st time.

Food was awesome, guest were awesome, everything is great. and go back home dgn hati yg penuh kegembiraan.


To Tulsy: Good luck on ur future and happy belated birthday
To dancerboy: Thx for the invitation
To Jason: Thx for the ride very very very much!!!!!

Since absent for long time, i thk a lot of quotes available now. Need time to read back a lots of post from you guys =.=" hahaha

Saturday, July 16, 2011


Turns on.... well I think I better talk about a turn off first.

Well, got this 1 time, I went to mamak stall and I saw this very cute looking guy and he is sitting just at the table opposite me. hehehe, this should be a very good appetizer for my eyes I said to myself.

So while waiting for my order of "limau ais" or ice lime. I was talking with my housemate on the "Bersih rally" that occur last week, but my eyes is all over, harvesting that guy. Then suddenly, he took out something from his pocket, get a cigarette out, light it and put it into his mouth....... okay..... time to concentrate more on my topic with my housemate <---- got turn off by a smoking guy.

So what type of guy turn you off? (he have to turn you on first if not how to turn off?)


Quote of the days
"If I like someone, I will claim that person all for myself. I'd want to capture his body and soul from his root and never let go. If he is the one, I will make him mine no matter what it takes" 

Friday, July 1, 2011


We likes pets. Dogs, cats, hamster, birds, tortoise, lizard, chameleons, parrots, etc etc.

They are very cute when they are small. Some are given as a present to us.

When it began, they are very cute.

Then time is a very cruel thing

Pets become old......

When I was younger, my neighbor reared 2 dogs - female dogs. They are very cute.Then they grew up. They become big. Not long after that, it is the mating season. Saw the dogs mating. Not long after that, I never saw the dogs again. According to the neighbor, they threw the dog away because they can't afford to have more than 2 dogs, and their puppies, so they threw them away (then why rear dog in first place? or why dun u guys sprayed (also known as castrate) them?). Hmmmm..... is it cruel or is it the reality of life? When something is cute and adorable, we liked them very much, then when they grew bigger, or older, the "likes" and "adore" become less and less. But not all are like that, I remember one of my friend, still kept his dog - no matter how old or ugly it became (ugly as in become sickly). Though not all will be that heartless, you can't deny their existence.

Just a random thinking from this post - So, for now, when you are young, you look nice, your partner looks nice, so what happened in 20 years time? 30 years time, when you got old, will you abandon your partner when he got ugly?

Not trying to be shallow, but reality hurts. Not everyone is like that, but to know someone like that exist..... make me puke.....

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Girls, marriage and gays

Lol Calvin C, in response to your question at the chat box.

First, I don't hate girls. I like them, but nothing more than friends. Once, I did have a gf, but then after that accident, i never find a new person like her or to replace her. It took me around more than 10 years before I get into relationship, and this time with a man, my ex.

The thing is, from my point of view, when we like someone, it is not supposed to be bounded by religion, races or gender. Even age. Everyone should have the freedom to love and rights to choose their lifestyle. I love someone because, he is him and it is not because of his gender or anything. How to explain, when you see him, you will have problem in breathing, your ear or face will feel warm, you heartbeat will go very fast. and when he passed through you, you will want to smell him, even if a bit, even if a gush. This same goes to the straight, when they find a girl they liked - what I want to say is, you know you are gay when you have the same feeling towards a guy.

Usually when you're in love, no matter where you are or what time you're in, you will only remember of him. Same goes with the straight they will go gaga towards the girl they like. If you still don't get my point - the only difference that a gay or a straight guy should have is on the gender of person they liked. Thats all. If everyone can understand this, the world will be a better place. But sadly, in Malaysia, it is still a taboo to many.

Now talking about marriage.... what happen Calvin? Your parents arranged you a marriage??? =P
Well, if you know you are gay, and you only getting married just to please your parents and the society.... then better don't. Coming out of closet is a very very big decision. To avoid marriage choose to come out to their family. 1 thing for sure, not everyone can accept the fact their son is gay. For those accepted, yeah to you. For those who don't and want to remain closeted (like me), there gonna be a lot of pressure from all sides. Society, family and friends. For friends, I came out to them one by one- for now, they are quite cool with it (not many though).

Marriage is something that is supposed to be sacred. It is a stage where 2 individuals want to announce to the world of their readiness of living together as a family and are recognized by others. It is also a way of telling others "get your hand off my hubby/wifey". Don't know about you, for me, marriage shouldn't be used as a tool, no matter what the conditions are.

Some might ask "what is a lesbian girl asked me for a "fake" marriage just to please your parents - both sides will be okay with the marriage and you can avoid suspicions from others"
 - my answer would be "if she asked me for a fake marriage, I would refuse to. It can solve my problem (rushed by parent for marriage), but, it will create a new problem in future. I rather live as myself, I will keep my sexuality a secret till I can manage to live on my own, but I will not use someone as scapegoat to conceal my secret"

If my family is to find out about me, I will not deny it. What is meant to happen will happen one day. We have enough problem, so why create more?

Lastly, don't worry about living as gay, but worry more on how to live as a human. There are more to do and to worry at.

p/s: Calvin, this is just according to my point of view. Others might not agree with it. I don't hate girls, I won't get married and I never regret my sexuality. And I believe in 1 thing - freedom to love.

Quote of the day:
"It is hard enough to live as the minorities, and as a minorities among the minorities, instead of making more troubles, wasn't it better if we look after each other."
(forgot who liao)

Just for ur entertainment. A video clip I believe support my belief - the freedom to love - no matter who u liked. Long live Gary!!

Saturday, June 25, 2011



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There are times, when we need to be in solitude. Away from people, away for work, away doing own stuff to calm down, to think carefully and to see things clearly. For past 1 month, that is what happening to me.

To be frank, I am never the same person after that incident. There are time I am determined, there are time I am regretting and there are time when I am doubting. This 1 month, I don't know if I had found what I am seeking for. 

He had been there for too long, first love (at least toward a guy) is hardest to forget. So many first times, looking at place you went before, listening to music that both of you liked, looking at dates of those important event, those type of memory, somehow will make you doubt, if the decision is a correct one.

Solitude, I cut off my life from my normal routine. Cutting off my connection with other people, this include games, this blogs, and friends. I went to gym pun alone. Go back pun alone. But this is not because I am lonely, but because I choose to be in solitude, to give space to oneself to think deeply of what matters. 

Problem is easier for some to see in another person, but for those involved, it is harder for them to solve. I don't know if my period of solitude helped me or not.

Forget the past and grasp the future, that is the conclusion that I made. Easier said than done, but this 1 month, I had been thinking very few of him. It is almost 100 days now, 3 months of separation, loss of connection. 

Each time I said I am fine, I am lying to myself. But to heal, this is what that must be done.

So guys, I am back. No longer am I in my state of solitude. This blog is back. Well, time to reload another RM 30 into my phone..... gonna have around RM 70+ soon... 

p/s Calvin C, I will write for your question in next blog post. 

...... Reconnection successful......

Quote of the day 
"Success is getting what you want. Happiness is wanting what you get."
Dale Carnegie

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Thx for the censoring + pictorial instruction on how to access em'

Lately, our government censored a lot of websites (which is used for downloading) such as : Filestube, megaupload etc etc etc.

Well, thx to them, I now can access porn website which I tot is not possible last time. i.e: redtube (nvr been here), xtube (my first reference for gay porn - mostly amateur), sunporno (bunch of asian twinks), tube8, xhamster (a lot of twinks), usually before the censorship I went to hornygeek and boyfriendTV.... Well all thx to Robby's post here on how to surf banned software. So guys, pls share it out on how to change the DNS setting.

First click Start 

Then click the Control Panel 
(then click network and internet --> network and sharng centre)

(right click ur main internet connection and click on the properties)

After that click the Internet Protocol version 4 (TCP/ IPv4) then click the properties

Next next next 

after I change this setting, I can enter websites I can't enter last time. (this is call changing the DNS)
Other Free DNS that you can type beside are (as taken from Robbie's blog)

Direct copy-paste punya 


=> Service provider: Google
Google public dns server IP address:

=> Service provider:Dnsadvantage
Dnsadvantage free dns server list:

=> Service provider:OpenDNS
OpenDNS free dns server list / IP address:

=> Service provider:Norton
Norton free dns server list / IP address:

=> Service provider: GTEI DNS (now Verizon)
Public Name server IP address:

=> Service provider: ScrubIt
Public dns server address:

Other anti-censorship DNS servers: (German sehr schnell! (German (German Privacy Foundation e.V.) (German Privacy Foundation e.V.) (German Privacy Foundation e.V.) (German Privacy Foundation e.V.) langsam! (FoeBuD e.V.) (ClaraNet) (ClaraNet) (Chaos Computer Club Berlin) (OpenNIC, Australien) (OpenNIC, Australien) (OpenNIC, Australien) (OpenNIC, Brasilien) (OpenNIC, Deutschland) (OpenNIC, Frankreich) (OpenNIC, USA)
2002:d857:54d2:2:20e:2eff:fe63:d4a9 (OpenNIC, IPv6 USA)
2001:470:1f07:38b::1 (OpenNIC, IPv6 USA)
2001:470:1f10:c6::2 (OpenNIC, IPv6 USA) (OpenNIC, USA) (, ISC)
2001:4f8:0:2::14 (, IPv6, ISC) (; anycast DNS!) (Erdgeist) (UDK Berlin) (Dataflash) (ValiDOM) (URZ Uni Heidelberg) (, Schweiz) (OpenDNS) (OpenDNS) (Comodo Secure DNS) (Comodo Secure DNS) (Freie DNS-Server) (Freie DNS-Server) (Google Public DNS) (Google Public DNS) (jali/CCCHB

Well since I used Window 7, tis is enough for me. You guys can refer here if u used linux or Mac OS.

p.s: Need to tat I can't resist = Twink + asian

Quote of the day:
"Sharing ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING is unhealthy random quirks are needed to keep the wheel going, giving everything away in the beginning will only seal a monotonous love life."

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

100th post

Today accompany my friend buying gift for his future-in-law at Balakong there.

At first dun wan to go... but he bribed me with a free session at green box, so off I go <3

Initially, I suggested tea for him (he said wan somethg cheap but good-budget around 100~200 like tat). Then he said, accordign to his gf, his in-law prefer to drink coffee.... So, instead we went to Eu Yan Seng. There he bought ginseng wine.

Now back to karaoke.... seems like some of the song..... is soulless to me already. The songs that I loved to sing, now I already lost the feeling singing - unlike few months back... maybe the feeling is not there. I dun even sing songs that is for the broken hearted.

Example few song that I think entered my new song list are:


Besides that, I just noticed this post is my 100th post. Rarely update lately. Thx guys for reading my blogs. You guys are super awesome. A lot of sweet and bitter happened when I started this blogs. When I read back, it traced back the journey that I made... though it is not that far yet, but at least when I read back, it bring back memory. I have not wrote ALL that happened here but when I go to certain dates and blog post, I can remember clearly the happenings. Sometimes it bring smiles, sometimes it bring tears. I am always truthful when i wrote because the end of the days, it recorded the things that happened and how I felt when I wrote 'em. 

Next, I am thankful knowing most of u bloggers out there (though most of us never met in person before). Tulsie (this include dancerboy bubu too), Calvin J, Calvin C, Lionfever, Eric, Danny, Ray, William, Vincent (coughcough*name* here too), Ash, Sky, Deicidal, Chen Xing (hehe, I include kidz here too), and many many more. You guys are awesome! If I do have that type of luck, we may meet in the future. 

No, tis is not the start of 100, 200 post thingy thgs, Just tat i have left 2 digits post and next would be 3 digits post, 4 digits etc etc etc. 

So guys, good days to you and good luck. :)

p/s: Deicidal: Couldn't find "I wish you love" in Greenbox.... tat sux. 

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Tunggu kamu 3 ribu tahun...

Me..... Back........


I am sure many of you had watch this movie before. 
Well this post is dedicated to those who is facing LDR or is going to face LDR.
Or maybe is more like encouragement?

I like this version more than the drama.
Their sound resonate well and her voice is haunting... "ne yo, ne yo"

This lady waited for 3000 years for her beloved general. 
They never even said "I love you" before
and yet, she still can wait for him, for 3000 years.

Maybe 3000 years is too much for normal human.
and 30 years is legendary enough
while 3 years is a challenge
then 300 days also can't wait - that is.... a joke.

Well, dunno what I am crapping here.

But I have to applaud my brother (the sailor), he had been in relationship with his gf for almost 2 years now and it can be consider as LDR or maybe worse than that. In 1 year, he only manage to meet her for maybe the most 2 times. (She stays in Kuching, while my brother usually sails and is on sea for 6 months and on land for 4 months). Basically, he can only meet her 2 times a year and have to travel by flight 1 hours or by bus 10 hours just to meet her.
Me? I am still far from involving myself in any relationship for now. I like my current state. 
What happen last week?
1. filling soil into 30 pack of karung guni - make it around 40 kg each karung guni
2. Carry them into jeep with help of 1 my friend.
3. Carry out from jeep into glasshouse.
4 Ponteng UPM for few days because of the backache and sunburn 
Quote of the day:

" 能等待3000年的是神话, 300天都不到的叫废话 " 
Translate: Can wait for 3000 years - thats a myth, can't even wait for 300 days.... that's bullshit. 

Monday, June 6, 2011


*Ouch* *Ouch*

Still sore from the gym I went last Saturday.

That Saturday also joined the body balancing class. I think I work out more for that 1 hours. It is a torture.
1. I am not flexible enough
2. I am not relaxed enough - how not to stress wor???

My soreness I think come from that class..... maybe I shud join body combat or funk dance next time. But I dun hate body balancing class.... just that..... I still feel sore at my thing, harmstring, arms and stomach area. *ouch *ouch .....

Since had been ages since I really exercise, I will take it slow first.... maybe once per week for now? Then increase to 2 times a week, then 3 times. for now... I can't go for 2 weekends gym session.

I took the package. So the package will end till next February. I dunno if I can last that long or not.... The motivation, the determination, the I-don't-want-my-money-wasted kiasuness mind set will survive till then???

So now... I officially joined my first gym

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Ke-sohai-an tak terhingga

Today was expecting friend to visit from Sibu......
When I prepare to go out from my house to go to KL sentral....

I got his phone call....
Sorry I can't make it!
huh? Why???
I bought wrong ticket...
I bought July 1st... instead of June 1st...

Like this also can meh????

So expect him to come on July 1st liao lor...... the return ticket can burn liao lor.......

By the way today is Gawai at Sarawak.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011


I will be back to Sarawak in November. My best friend calls me and told me tat he is gonna marry at 20.11.2011, so I will be in Sibu by then. Maybe will go back to Bintulu on 21/22 November. Then go back to Serdang at 1/2 Dec. Depending on air ticket. But will be back to Bintulu again for Christmas and new year celebration.

I got a new addiction now..... Dynasty Saga.

So guys, if any of your friend ever recommend you an online game to play, Don't play Dynasty saga. I repeat "DON'T EVER PLAY DYNASTY SAGA"!!!

I will join toto fitness centre next month. Will register this Saturday. If you guys ever heard of bad thing about thise gym do tell me so. If not, I will go there liao.....

Next tuesday will be my progress report meeting with my supervisory committee. Need to reevaluate all the value in my data, making slides and planning for the last study (still haven't start yet....)

K guys, tats all the update I have for you all. Writing will resume to normal starting tomorrow.


Quote of the day:
"I do believe in miracles that will come and I hope they come by quickly...."
Usually this is what most of us wish for when we are suffering, whatever form it maybe 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Only you~

Cilaka workload and things to think.... I am now in ki siao mode. So when I am in ki siao mode, I will suddenly have my mind think on one person. Ya.... even though we had broke up for 2 month now (I never call him since then too), suddenly my mind will automatically think of him.

But that is the thing from the past. I noticed...
1. I saved a lot on my phonebill - as I am using prepaid, my expenses for past 2 months were around RM8~10 /mth.
2. I am actually having too much of time and occupy them for my project.
3. I don't feel lonely. As in....I thought i will feel lonely but, I don't hate this feeling so maybe it is not lonely - solitude perhaps? or just silence?

I just realized, how much of my time I used to spend on him. Now when I took him away from my life, a huge void exist. In state of silence, some will say I am being solitude but to me, it is a stage called healing.

Now, facebook, research and blogging played a major role in my daily life, but in the same time, I chat more with my sister online, my mum also, called me frequently lately (if I called to frequently, she will thought that I only do that to ask for pocket money)

Now back to the title enjoy this classic videoclip.

Quote of the day:
"We seem so frightened today of being alone that we never let it happen. Even if family, friends and movies should fail, there is still the radio or the television to fill up the void. Women, who used to complain of loneliness, need never be alone any more. We can do our housework with soap-opera heroes at our side. Even day-dreaming was more creative than this; it demanded something of oneself and it fed the inner life. Now, instead of planting our solitude with our own dream blossoms, we choke the space with continuous music, chatter and companionship to which we do not even listen. It is simply there to fill the vacuum. When the noise stops there is no inner music to take its place. We must re-learn to be alone."
Anne Morrow Lindbergh 

Friday, May 20, 2011

Encountering this type of person, what will you do?

Happy Friday guys!!!

Share with you another video on Friday. I don't know if this gonna be my last.


The song in this version is pretty nice if you ask me.... But... that guy who do the dancing....
WTF!!! He really got guts and hell yeah, his self-confidence is damn high too.
Now the topic for today. 
What will you do if you see such person on the street?
Or dance like this in your shop?

For me... I will stop... watch a while see how long he danced... if he annoyed people too much.... and dance too long.... I might go near him.... Hold him on his shoulder with my left hand. Then
SLAP HIM and say "Bangun! Bangun!! Begone evil spirit!!!"
Well... hope I won't encounter such person.....

Well guys, happy weekend! and for those finishing their exam, good luck on your final paper!


Quote of the day:

"Sometimes we will pretend, pretend that both of us are happy. But then I know, deep down inside, both want to be free. Only that, who voice it out first ? One will definitely don't want to hurt the other one."
Chen Xing 

Monday, May 16, 2011

Memang speechless

I was surprised by a reply given to me when i commented on certain entry by someone. It really left me speechless. Currently my feeling can be defined using first four lines from first four stanza in this song by Lady Gaga:

"I can't believe what you said to me
I can't believe how you looked at me
Can we fixed you if you broke
I'll never talk again, oh boy you left me speechless"

To that someone who left me speechless, it's good that you can handle your problem well. With all the beautiful memory on how you started your relationship. Sometimes, normally as readers, we tend to leave some comments that you might disagree such as calling your ex "Setan" or leaving advise such as he don't deserve your love. you are right when you said everyone deserved love. Thats your point of view, and I respect you on that.

When we call someone Devil, doesn't mean he is the reincarnate form of Lucifer. We meant his cruel and cold treatment is very terrible.
When i say he don't deserve your love, I mean, you should move on and pour that love of yours to someone else, who is more deserving. You can remain as friend with your ex as if I care. If you can't accept it well, then as I said earlier on, I am speechless.

Enough said, you manage to make me speechless. But you earn my RESPECT, you wished them happiness and love in return, despite the betrayal and cruel act. ALL THE BEST!

p/s: I wonder if you will ever read this.

BTW, tomorrow is public holiday - Wesak Day. Happy holiday guys (if you cuti today, then you have 4 days holiday in total =.=")


Quote of the day

"Love is blind, may they have all the happiness in the world."

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Shower me with your love

I like old song. Not to say new songs are not good... just that, it is a bit not to my liking.
Well this song is great and some how when I first heard it last Thursday, I fell in love with it.
Anyway, for those who had found his love, appreciate him and shower him with your love...
not just cum...

For those still in search, good luck! You will found each other somehow.

Quote of the day 
"Life is too short to live alone, without someone to call my own"

Saturday, May 14, 2011


Happy weekend guys.

Currently, at this time period, most of us are either busy with study (exam) or with works. For me, I am busy with my writing on my previous 2 studies and got few corrections to be done after showing em' to my supervisor. Beside that, I am also busy with preparation for my glasshouse study and thanks God that, finally glasshouse is available. It had caused me almost 2 months of delay in starting my final study.

the outline of my final study would be
                - 2 weeks of preparation.
                - 40 days of glasshouse study.
                - 2 - 4 weeks of laboratory analysis

then 1 whole semester of writing~> Free time for me (need to prepare for my viva though)....

Sigh*  In fact, I can finished my whole Master this year, graduating next semester. I delayed my works, out of my own foolishness of thinking that he will be doing it here with me. he tried... but he decide it is not suitable for him. But that is just a part of old me.

New me? I don't know. But for now, for sure, I must finish my study first then plan for my future. Wish me luck guys.

I know it is Saturday, but since there is something wrong with Bloggers yesterday.... so I guess i just shared this with you guys today instead..... Glee version of Friday.....

For those involve in exam... Gambateh!! You will pass with flying colours
For those still looking for love.... gambateh!! You will find each other soon
For short* Dun give up and always work hard. Everyone have their down and problem.
So "Gambateh" from Whiz~
Enjoy your weekend guys!!

Quote of the days:
"Nobody worth to be your whole world unless he make his yours" 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

           ~Who ran to help you when you fell
and kiss the place to make it well?
When I woke up, I saw 3 miscall from my sister and an SMS reminding me today is Mother's Day. Ahahahaha, so cute of her!

I already called my mum and wished her. She is having breakfast with another family friends to have their mothers' day breakfast.

Before we were able to see lights
mother bear the pain of carrying us around
When we were born
no matter how pain the labor is,
all pain gone when she held us in her arms.
Before we were able to talk and only know how to cry,
she and daddy woke up in the middle of night to calm us down,
hunt for mosquito which bite us and rub the ointment to ease the itch
Then when we start to learn to sleep alone,
who kiss and hug us and turn down the fan speed at the midnight?
and whisper "I am proud of you, son"
then when we enter school
Who is more nervous on our academic performance than us?
Fearing we can't find decent job and
in return they got misunderstood most of the time,
we start to turn our face away.
Then we enter rebellious stage
Who weep in the night praying to God to forgive our sin?
Blame themselves for being incapable instead of complaining about us?
And forgive us all the time no matter what we did
We thought they hate us
but deep inside they are hurt even more than us
what she want is not a sorry
because she already forgive us even before we did the mistake
but a simple thanks and obedience
there are more more to list down
Anyway, for readers out there,

If she is still around, make her feel extra special today, more than other days, hug her, kiss her just like during your birthdays and her birthdays.
If she is not and you miss her and can still remember her, then remember her for her unconditional love.
If you never get to know her, then always remember her pain and labor while having us in her womb on how she must have hope for us. There must be a reason you are born - her love.

For all the mothers out there, Happy Mothers' Day!!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Pair of love - 双

Another short movie from Taiwan and good news folks, I watched the Youtube version and they have English subtitle for it Yippee!

I have mixed feeling when watching this short movie. Even though it is student's project and low budget movie, the meaning is quite deep. The actors are cute <3 (I think Mr Ooi2009 will say I am being stereotype) Anyway, pls spend 30 minutes of your time watching this movie. I like the ending~ especially the facial expression of that guy when being hugged from the back. He didn't look back but he knew who hugged him. Happy ending for the gay couple (which is rare) - most gay movie put up sad ending to the gay couples.

Trailer - in case you want to skip this movie

Quote of the day:

     Translation ~ If (we) cannot hug (each other), then what is left on this world? 

Pair of love 

Thing I can't eat

Few days ago, I went to Klang. My friend treat me for the local delicacies there.  1 of the local delicacies is the Sek Pan fish....

Little that I know, Sek Pan is in fact a type of grouper or Kerapu. It is 1 of the things that I cannot eat. After eating, I feel itch all over my body and it still continue but now it is a bit better. Maybe kerapu is a type of allergy to our family instead of curse? 

My uncle, also once ate kerapu, he develop few whitish spots on his arms and legs. It remained for him since 20 years ago - luckily he already got married earlier before have the spots. 

Not all melanau cannot eat kerapu, only some families - my father and mother's side both also cannot eat kerapu. Lucky for me, I only eat very little if not... i will be a leopard man...... 

Next, people in my kampung cannot eat venison or the deer meat. There was a story where our ancestor found our village with the help of the deer and in return, our ancestor oath not to eat deer meat as a sign of gratitude. True enough, some of people who accidentally ate deer meat before will face their consequences. For married ladies, they will die during labor. For others (unmarry lady, guy and marry guy) they will die unnatural death.

Same goes to certain type of mango. These mango are only found in Sarawak's forest. 
There are also few types of fish which will causes us bone ache. my mum advise is, just eat fish tat we ate before and dun cincai cincai eat other fish tat we never tried before.  

Eventhough it sounded a bit weird, but the thing is, bad things do happen when we don't follow the warning that our ancestors passed down to us. So unbelievable? Believe it......


Quote of the day:
"its very rare that i don’t like someone… if i don’t like someone, that means the person got some serious problem"

"Seeing is believing? Wait till it happens to you and you will understand the meaning of regret"


Thursday, May 5, 2011

Sorry + my race

Have not been writing for few days..... busy doing my data analyses to give to my supervisor after she came back from New Zealand.... Still haven't finished though.... Erm... in return.... I want to write something about my race - Melanau

I wonder if you guys have heard about this race before. Well there are 6 major groups of Melanau ppl, depending on the place - Mukah, Bintulu, Daro, Dalat, Balingian and Miri. I am a Melanau Mukah.

It is not a big race - we have around 500 k ppl. Erm, ppl keep on confusing Melanau ppl with Melayu Sarawak, it is different. Most melanau ppl are Muslim, followed by Christian and animist. I am Christian.

Few facts:
1. We never do headhunting before. It is practice by the d'yak people in the past.

2. We don't live in longhouse - we have our own house. In the past, intead of longhouse, we live in tallhouse.

3. Our staple food is not rice, it is sago pearl.

4. As we lived near the seaside, there are families which are good in fishery, making boats etc. Our famous dish is something we called "umai"

5. We don't celebrate Gawai, we celebrate Pesta Kaul.

6. Melanaus are given "bin" and "binti" in their name regardless of their religion.

7. We have our own caste system which is still being used by some melanau in certain occasion such as proposing, engagement, marriage and funeral.

8. Like the malay people, guys stay at wife's house - but today, most of us can buy our own house.

9. Our origin is very debate-able - some say we are from Philippine, Java or Southern China.

10. The dialect of every different group of melanau is very different that it can sound like a total different language to others.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Fairy tales - other point of view

For those who loves fairy tales - the one that ends up happily ever after.... pls dun kill me after reading this entry. Hehehe

Just for fun... din mean to kill your childhood....

When kids come back home late at night, ever wonder who is their role model in doing so? Taa daa - Cinderella.

When kids walk around the house half naked and act like monkeys (sometime applicable in classroom) who do they learn that from? Tarzan

If there are increases of more thieves.... we only have Aladdin to blame - he is the king....

If kids are lazy and love to sleep around.... all the time well I give you the clue on who to blame to - Sleeping Beauty

Howbout the idea of orgy? Thats right!! Snow White lives with 7 guys!!!

One last thing... it is not really fairy tales though - if you think Superman is a bad role model because he wears his underwear outside, then you know nothing yet. Batman drives 320 km/hr!

Not funny right? Well happy week end guys! Guess what! It is the last day of April!! Tomorrow is Labor Day!!

Pls share your view on fairy tales or superheroes "fakes" too - if you have any..... hahahahahahaha

Quote of the days:

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does."
Ultraman Jino 

Friday, April 29, 2011

This is a TRAGEDY!!!!

Good news and bad news....

First good news (at least for me)... I would like to say "syabas" for the TM for fixing my line.... 72 hours and it was fixed in 24 hours. Feel very thankful!!

Secondly bad news - to most of the bloggers and blog readers.... I dunno if you guys realized it already or not, please read here

This is a tragedy!!! I dunno what will happen in the future.... I hope he will continue writing, or create a new blog? His blog had been one of the earliest blog that I followed.

Below are the blogs that i followed religiously and will have a very bad day or feeling guilty if I don't read their posting. Starting from the very first blog I followed till the one I read recently.

Pluboy Eric + Simonlover> + JerryKiat + Sky> Tuls + Calvin J + Aaron Ng> Bravebear + Pikey Chan> ....... > LMO + Deicidal

Subsequently, I know about other blogs when I read from the previous blogs. For all the blogs that i put in my bloglist, I really follow all of them and nothing excite me more than seeing the updates, reading em' and commenting on em'. I always look out on quotes - some are meaningful, deep and purely motivating while  some are funny to the max and can help me to forget my problems (even if for a while).

Anyway, lets all hope for the best for our beloved Simonlover!!! He still owe me likes 2 more parts of karma sutra.... the other 3 C's....... more Singaporean hunks (dun care if overdose though)...... those visits to massage place...... and so lots more

I hoped this is just a prank..........

Some might tell me.... "Get a life!" but... this is part of my life, the only part that I can be honest with myself, at least at my own feeling.

Quote of the days:
Though I want to be in loved but I rather stay single than to have someone who takes relationship lightly!"
Ray Brixton 

"Eng Hao died! The end!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Internet line..... GG....

My internet line GG (as in died)..... Don't know what happened, called TM liao and they said, they will try to fixed the problem within 72 hours.

This afternoon a very heavy rain happened at my area. After a very loud thunder and strong lightning, my line gone cuckoo after that - both PWR and WLAN light still on. DSL light totally off. My house phone also die liao.

Hope they will fix it as soon as possible.....

p.s : GG is a slang used by ppl nowaday in dota (especially in garena) when the game is over... it stands for good game... in normal conversation, GG can be used as "habis" liao, "can't be save" etc etc etc....

p.s.s: Ash, try send me an email to:


Quote of the day:
"I believe people who are so eager to get in love should also understand and prepare the pain and hurt that comes with it."

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Sissy and gay same meh???

All sissies are gay? All gay are sissy? This is one of the most common misconception by the society. For example, from 1 entry I remember a brother of someone mentioned "actually i knew you were a pondan when we were younger

Sissy come from the word sister - refers to guy who exhibit effeminate behaviour. However this word also refers to guy who is weak and cowardly. For example please refer to the picture below, can you identify which of these guys are the real "sissy"? I am not saying muscular hunky people are sissy, just that we shouldn't judge a book by its cover - hope those hunky, 6-pack abs, marvelicious muscular reader out there don't be angry, k.... hahahaha                       

In Malaysia, especially the Muslim (although not all) looks down on the sissies and treat them as some kind of disease. This is to be proven by the recent news from Terengganu. Please read Boot camp in Malaysia for effeminate boys slammed (Posted by Deicidal earlier) - I was offended by the news. In Sarawak, this news occur. 

Now talking about counseling, what type of counseling do you want to give? Counseling on job - can be accepted. Counseling on behaviour changes - not a good idea. Counseling on converting the gay sissy to be straight - good luck on that, you only waste your money. 

Not all sissy are gay and they can be straight too. Their action are pretty gentle, which looks quite effeminate to others. Deep inside, they are just being themselves and pretty sure that they are not gay. Let this character in a movie give you an insight of such person. 

As conclusion: Not all gays are sissy and not all sissies are gay.

Last of all, for you who have such friend or family member, accept them as who they are. They suffer more than us. I attribute this song to them "Born This Way" by Lady Gaga played by Maria Aragon. Just be yourself, you are good just the way you are, even if the society rejects you, knows that you are never alone!!!

Quote of the day:
"Sometimes I just wish that life is like a high school workbook, whereby questions on the front pages and then flip to the back for the answers. "
Chen Xing 

Monday, April 25, 2011

Sikit pun tak significant / Officially 26

My existence is not significant.

If you want people to remember your birthday, you will let Facebook do the reminder.
I don't.
Today, I am officially 26.

Usually today, I will get the message and wishes from him. But since I am no longer an important person in his life, I don't think I will get it anymore... since it had been a couple of hours after 12. But, if I am to put myself into his shoes, will I call him to wish him a happy birthday? I don't know. We'd moved on.

When I was younger, my family totally forgotten about my birthday too. Each time it reached May, my mum said "OMG, we missed your birthday (again) this year!!!" All this continue until my sister was born and when my mum forgot about her birthday once, she was quite sad and was even sadder when she received my birthday wish sms - as I am the only one who remember. She then memorized everyone's birthday and will remind my mum when the time is near. It works... since then.

When I say my existence is not significant, it is not meant to be pessimistic.

One more myth on my birthday:~
I had lost my IC two time consecutively for past 2 years - on my birthday. But I think I will break this curse this year.

Quote of the day (my own quote =P)
"Love start with a smile, survive for that smile, gone when the smile lost, but can be retrieve when the smile is found again"
"To you, I may never existed, but I will always remember you. I will be there when you need me the most, protecting you like a shadow. No, I don't need your thanks, but instead reward me with your smile and led a good life. Only then, I can enter the oblivion, satisfied"

Friday, April 22, 2011

Failed Epic

Hmmm.... I am not good in writing stuff like this. Dun throw stone at me ya....

What happened when 2 virgins try to have sex together? This is my experience with my ex.

Few weeks after staying together in my 7th sem (3 years ago), we decided to do "that". Unlike now, that time, we have limitations:
1. In Bintulu there is no places called Guardian or Watson.
2. I know about the existence of condom but not lubricant.
3. I don't know other gay course mate or friend, so no reference to ask.
4. My only source of sexual education is from
5. If some of you remember, the porn tat time are mostly in form of short video clips. (usually is 4 pieces of 10 sec clips)
Meaning, there are lack of information and preparation.

Tat time, i dun know anythg about fingering and rimming. Ya, I was a noob 20's guy tat time.

Tat night, as I remember, it was somewhere during holidays - Hari Raya holiday (if not mistaken) when most people went back. As I said before, usually people will knock into our room, so purposely choose a time when most people are not around.

We agreed on me being the top that time (We found out later that he is a better top) - 1st mistake (I guess). The reason is because I had been acting top in many field - when ordering food, i always initiate a movement and making the decision or should I say I am the more active partner.  He is the passive one and i had been treating him like a princess.

So we started with a foreplay like usual. He lies there while I put on all the action. I start by rubbing our nose, then closed our eyes then kissing intimately. I remember our first kiss was like a primary student kiss but then slowly it evolved and we start to upgrade our technique. Maybe I was extra nervous that night, my breathing was faster than usual - knowing that we wanted to do our anal for the first time, but it is not the first time we do non-penetrative "sex". He was also nervous because I never felt him breathing that fast before - except during our first passionate kiss where we literally stopped breathing for few seconds.

I slowly go for his neck - one of his sensitive parts. His fair skin can really leave an obvious red-purplish marks easily. After my house incident, I try to be gentle a bit there. Still on top of him, while kissing his neck area (suckling will be a better word), I slowly moved my tongue to his chest and start to go to his nipple area. He usually complaint not to suck his nipple for too long because he found it....too ticklish. After a few moaning, and while i suckled his nipples, his hands try to push me away I think it signaled that it is enough sucking there and want me to move further - in fact I like to hear his voice when I suck his nipple, twirling my tongue around his nipple and let him struggle to push me away. Then i start kissing my way from his nipple toward his naval. He is very slim! When my tongue move toward his naval through his stomach, he release the most arousing "ahh" sound/moan. And his gesture and stomach movement, it aroused me even more. i don't spend too long there, then moving backward a bit, I took off his pants (yea, he dun wear underwear at night) then my shirt too.

Stroking his lil brother for a while, I enter the stick into my mouth blowing it. He liked my swirling technique - where i used my tongue to move his stick around my mouth - it always works and he will moan each time I do that. I also liked to deep throat him and each time I do that, he will pulled my head so that I can take it deeper. He tried his best to delay his cumming. but usually, he will released some pre-cum. then play dirty by pushing my head away. I remember that night I asked him  - "what happened? you don't like it?" he answer me "natural response".

After sucking a while, I asked his permission for entering - here the story begin. I lifted his legs and placed them onto my shoulder, exposing his tight virgin hole. Then placing my lil brother there and try to enter - forcefully. First try, he complained pain. I stop for a while and told him to relax and try to push toward me while I try to enter. He said, okay try. Second try, still same, his tight hole wouldn't allowed me to enter. After few attempt, i asked him to change position - later known to me as the Reverse Cowboy style. When he try to push himself in, I also try to push myself into him. Like before, he "aiyok, aiyok" me and say painful. I cancel the plan. and continue with frotting instead. I assumed that we are not ready and doesn't have much knowledge in this field yet. We end it by frotting and sleep ourselves through the night hugging each other till morning. Attempt failed, epic failed.

The reason I cancel it is because I remember in Nifty it was written "don't force your partner to have sex if he felt pain" I scared that the sex won't be beautiful and instead will traumatized him. I also never thought of bottoming for him because I - just like him, never bottom before. It took us long time before we experience our first anal.

Conclusion: Later on, I found out, rimming is important to make sure your partner relax.
                   Use lubricant. apply more if still can't enter.
                   Always relax.

P/s: No, this blog is not going toward erotic story direction. This is my experience..... Envy those who have "tunjuk ajar" from more knowledgeable people - at least they have a good advice or even amali.

 Anyway, happy Easter guys and guess what? it's Friday!! Have a nice weekend!
Justin LionFever!!! Happy belated birthday ya!!

Quote of the day:
"the feeling of LOVE will not always on the highest point of the hills. sometimes, the feeling might go down, but that is still the process of LOVE"


Monday, April 18, 2011

My roomies during my stay in the Campus

I try to resume my "unintentionally" post but, it had been 1 of the biggest regret in my life and I guess I will only write it when I am ready. 

I had wrote this entry for long time but haven't found the time to post it after the break-up. Thanks to Tulsy, I got my chance to post this entry. *Hugs


In my campus, we had a system where 2 roomies will stay together for at least 1 year. and in my 4 years of degree time, I have 4 different EFFEMINATE roomies. 

1st year:

During my 4 years of stay in the campus, I had been staying with 4 different sissies. First sissy, is a hunky Indian but among the Indian, he is the sissiest - he bought fair and lovely to whiten his face (never work) and go to the extent of shaving his chest hair (consider as weird by all his Indian friends because chest hair is a symbol of manliness/manchoness according to one of my friend), however, after 2 years of influence from his peer, he tried to be manly.

Funniest moment would be when he straightened his hair. I mean, most of my coursemate found it is unnecessary  because he look great with his curly hair and the straight hair.... tak betul lar. He is straight by the way. Not gay.

My first year was filled with laughter and I think he is quite an interesting individual. (I nvr thought of being gay at all that time)

2nd year

Second year, I stayed with my senior. He is one of the peers that we called "ah gua" in our campus. He only entered "ah gua" mode when his friends are around and they don't mind showing their effeminism to anyone. However, when his friends are not around, he was just being cool like most of the people in campus. He even hide his "sexy" voice when he spoke to me.

1 of my friend helped me to move my stuff to my room. After he saw my room mate, he got a chill in his spine and never visited me to my room anymore. None of my friend did anyway =.="

Oh ya, he is gay. Reported from a reliable source (or maybe is just another man who have sex with man?). Nothing intimate happened between us.

(I am in a confused mode that time and I found out I already fell in love with a guy - my ex)

3rd year

Third year, I was in the same room with the campus's Queen. His cat walk beaten most of the girls, very slim and was crowned Queen of the Night during the Prom night by the students - however he did not won it officially due to strong Islamic stance of our attending lecturer (yeah this is Malaysia).

He's openly gay or should I say, he never treat himself as guy and insist that God is being unfair and is making a great joke out of him - he's born male and would have prefer if he was born a female.

We entered UPM together and since our first meeting I already knew him - i.e guys who he liked and so on. He even got surprised when I have this talk on guys he liked. Yup, we have a great talk - nothg funny happen though (I mean I didn't do anythg over the boundary with this room mate compare to the one I am going to have on the following years).

This room mate of mine in fact is grouped in good-looking guy. But he liked to wear dresses and high heels. His feminism even beat most of the female coursemate I know.

The last time I heard about this room mate is he is currently working in Putrajaya and I heard from a friend that time, he wore a baju kebaya with a group of friends. I think he must be in quite a happy condition now. Oh ya, he dunno I am gay though. I had been very discreet.......

I got all these 3 room mate out of accident - arranged by the College admin.

4th year

Final year, I chose my own room mate, my ex. Note that, this happened after I confessed to him. Usually the college won't entertain students who want to change room, but I swindled my way through (that will be another story). Ya, 1 year of anything you can think of happened in that room - my first time exploring the gay universe (beside that, there are few failed epics which we had there before, maybe I will write it for tomorrow post?). But, even though we were in the same room, it's hard to have the space for ourselves- our coursemate usually visit us for assignments and etc etc etc.

Some people would say that he is quite effeminate however, 1 of my female friend said that his action is something we called "manja". I agreed and I found it cute. That had been the greatest year of my life.

So what is your experience with effeminate people? I don't have any negative impression on them because I had been living with them.

Thursday, April 14, 2011


If you unintentionally hurt someone's feeling what will you do?
          A. Play dumb
          B. Go and explain to him what really happen
          C. Wait for him to confront you and explain to him that time
          D. Look for third party to cool both side down.
          E. Let it be

What if you don't know that you had offense him and he just act cold to you, not telling you anything and just create a barrier between you two, will you

          A. Play dumb
          B. Go and ask him what really happen 
          C. Wait for him to confront you and demand explanation from him that time
          D. Look for third party to cool both side down.
          E. Let it be

Well, there are no right or wrong answer for the above question. All actions bear different result and consequences. And these actions and results are not reversible. So think properly so that you will make a right decision.  

To be continued (with a story on what happened to me last time).......... 


Quote of the day:
"No matter how hot someone is, if their attitude is crappy then the hotness factor goes to the North Pole and buries itself"