First, I don't hate girls. I like them, but nothing more than friends. Once, I did have a gf, but then after that accident, i never find a new person like her or to replace her. It took me around more than 10 years before I get into relationship, and this time with a man, my ex.
The thing is, from my point of view, when we like someone, it is not supposed to be bounded by religion, races or gender. Even age. Everyone should have the freedom to love and rights to choose their lifestyle. I love someone because, he is him and it is not because of his gender or anything. How to explain, when you see him, you will have problem in breathing, your ear or face will feel warm, you heartbeat will go very fast. and when he passed through you, you will want to smell him, even if a bit, even if a gush. This same goes to the straight, when they find a girl they liked - what I want to say is, you know you are gay when you have the same feeling towards a guy.
Usually when you're in love, no matter where you are or what time you're in, you will only remember of him. Same goes with the straight they will go gaga towards the girl they like. If you still don't get my point - the only difference that a gay or a straight guy should have is on the gender of person they liked. Thats all. If everyone can understand this, the world will be a better place. But sadly, in Malaysia, it is still a taboo to many.
Now talking about marriage.... what happen Calvin? Your parents arranged you a marriage??? =P
Well, if you know you are gay, and you only getting married just to please your parents and the society.... then better don't. Coming out of closet is a very very big decision. To avoid marriage choose to come out to their family. 1 thing for sure, not everyone can accept the fact their son is gay. For those accepted, yeah to you. For those who don't and want to remain closeted (like me), there gonna be a lot of pressure from all sides. Society, family and friends. For friends, I came out to them one by one- for now, they are quite cool with it (not many though).
Marriage is something that is supposed to be sacred. It is a stage where 2 individuals want to announce to the world of their readiness of living together as a family and are recognized by others. It is also a way of telling others "get your hand off my hubby/wifey". Don't know about you, for me, marriage shouldn't be used as a tool, no matter what the conditions are.
Some might ask "what is a lesbian girl asked me for a "fake" marriage just to please your parents - both sides will be okay with the marriage and you can avoid suspicions from others"
- my answer would be "if she asked me for a fake marriage, I would refuse to. It can solve my problem (rushed by parent for marriage), but, it will create a new problem in future. I rather live as myself, I will keep my sexuality a secret till I can manage to live on my own, but I will not use someone as scapegoat to conceal my secret"
If my family is to find out about me, I will not deny it. What is meant to happen will happen one day. We have enough problem, so why create more?
Lastly, don't worry about living as gay, but worry more on how to live as a human. There are more to do and to worry at.
p/s: Calvin, this is just according to my point of view. Others might not agree with it. I don't hate girls, I won't get married and I never regret my sexuality. And I believe in 1 thing - freedom to love.
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Just for ur entertainment. A video clip I believe support my belief - the freedom to love - no matter who u liked. Long live Gary!!
Marriage is indeed not a tool.
ReplyDeleteHey, thanks for the post. Love reading 'em. Haha, well my parents were asking me about marriage and girls stuff all the time. I am not into that kind of relationship. I love men! I am (being) closeted about my status all this while. Never had sex with any guy before but did a BJ with a guy before and yes, I love it! I tried to tell my mom that I am not going to get marry, but she dislike my idea. But she said 'It is up to you, as long as you happy with your life in the future'. LDR is good! Hey, thank you so much! I am in relationship. I love him so much. But Whizkid, why is it gay relationship cannot stay forever. There must be break up and sad moment. hurm.... ngeeee.... Ur my anonymous gay friend!
ReplyDeleteNice music video although I don't understand it. =P
ReplyDeleteFor us hopeless romantics, marriage is completely sacred.
ReplyDeleteSadly, many marriages to be recounted by history (or at least by my gloomy recollection) are everything but.
Therefore, marriage in reality, at it's best, I fear, is but a means to an end. 'Tool' may be a bad name for it, but it serves a purpose.
Thankfully, for most of us, that purpose remains to be of good intent.
On that note, I don't see wedlock in my future either.
i dont know you . i have not met you.but there is something about how you write that seems so smart and so sexy . I am not kidding
ReplyDeleteooi wtheck~ i have to agree with the affection part. Blush, increasing heart rate, that's my definition of like. there are plenty of yummy guys out there, but none of them manage to do this. but then again, i have these rushed for both male and female. uh oh, this calls for a bi bi bi
ReplyDeletetempus , what is the problem ? are u his boyfriend ? i find his comments hot... so what , terasa ke? he projects a sexy demeanor from his blog , and i find it hot .
ReplyDeletewhizkid, hahaha.... looks like u have a admirer. Kenak nya manas? Nya suka kau bah.... I tell you solemnly!
ReplyDelete@Chai: Totally agree
ReplyDelete@Deicidal: I didn't even dream for it.=P
@Ooi: Ahahahahaha, love it when you liked my post. Thx for reading and stopping by. In fact I also enjoy you comments. XD
@Tempus: Thx for the defense Tempus, ooi dun have bad intention in his previous comments (I guess). For your definiton of like, I will write it after next post. More on my own personal experience. Liked male, liked female, I believe in freedom to choose and freedom to love.
@Calvin Charles: I disagree, LDR is not good. But, as you are going to do medicine, you still have "license" to delay your "marriage". Wait till you start working, you will have all the excuse of not marrying. Let them worry =P
Wow, u are taken already? That's new to me. Ahahahahaha, good for you!!
"why is it gay relationship cannot stay forever. There must be break up and sad moment" - you are wrong, as everyone have the chances to love, there are equal chances for it to fail - be it Les, gay, bi or transgender. It is unfair to say in all gay relationship it must end sadly. I believe, when you found the right guy, you can live happily ever after.
Thank you very much... :)
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