For me, now is the time to return what I owed. I had been living my life for these 10 years.
I had my fill, I had my share. No regrets. No matter how my life will turned out later. It doesn't matter, because, He had been the most wonderful thing that ever happened in my life.
When I think of it this way, my depression seems gone.
2 years had passed. I found it impossible to love another man beside him.
Sex? It felt empty if that man is not him; Maybe I am just being demisexual?
When a man, lost his love, all that can drive him to live will be career.
I had returned to Sarawak. It had been one week here. I already got a job too.
**Just an update