Failed Epic

Hmmm.... I am not good in writing stuff like this. Dun throw stone at me ya....

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What happened when 2 virgins try to have sex together? This is my experience with my ex.

Few weeks after staying together in my 7th sem (3 years ago), we decided to do "that". Unlike now, that time, we have limitations:
1. In Bintulu there is no places called Guardian or Watson.
2. I know about the existence of condom but not lubricant.
3. I don't know other gay course mate or friend, so no reference to ask.
4. My only source of sexual education is from Nifty.org.
5. If some of you remember, the porn tat time are mostly in form of short video clips. (usually is 4 pieces of 10 sec clips)
Meaning, there are lack of information and preparation.

Tat time, i dun know anythg about fingering and rimming. Ya, I was a noob 20's guy tat time.

Tat night, as I remember, it was somewhere during holidays - Hari Raya holiday (if not mistaken) when most people went back. As I said before, usually people will knock into our room, so purposely choose a time when most people are not around.

We agreed on me being the top that time (We found out later that he is a better top) - 1st mistake (I guess). The reason is because I had been acting top in many field - when ordering food, i always initiate a movement and making the decision or should I say I am the more active partner.  He is the passive one and i had been treating him like a princess.

So we started with a foreplay like usual. He lies there while I put on all the action. I start by rubbing our nose, then closed our eyes then kissing intimately. I remember our first kiss was like a primary student kiss but then slowly it evolved and we start to upgrade our technique. Maybe I was extra nervous that night, my breathing was faster than usual - knowing that we wanted to do our anal for the first time, but it is not the first time we do non-penetrative "sex". He was also nervous because I never felt him breathing that fast before - except during our first passionate kiss where we literally stopped breathing for few seconds.

I slowly go for his neck - one of his sensitive parts. His fair skin can really leave an obvious red-purplish marks easily. After my house incident, I try to be gentle a bit there. Still on top of him, while kissing his neck area (suckling will be a better word), I slowly moved my tongue to his chest and start to go to his nipple area. He usually complaint not to suck his nipple for too long because he found it....too ticklish. After a few moaning, and while i suckled his nipples, his hands try to push me away I think it signaled that it is enough sucking there and want me to move further - in fact I like to hear his voice when I suck his nipple, twirling my tongue around his nipple and let him struggle to push me away. Then i start kissing my way from his nipple toward his naval. He is very slim! When my tongue move toward his naval through his stomach, he release the most arousing "ahh" sound/moan. And his gesture and stomach movement, it aroused me even more. i don't spend too long there, then moving backward a bit, I took off his pants (yea, he dun wear underwear at night) then my shirt too.

Stroking his lil brother for a while, I enter the stick into my mouth blowing it. He liked my swirling technique - where i used my tongue to move his stick around my mouth - it always works and he will moan each time I do that. I also liked to deep throat him and each time I do that, he will pulled my head so that I can take it deeper. He tried his best to delay his cumming. but usually, he will released some pre-cum. then play dirty by pushing my head away. I remember that night I asked him  - "what happened? you don't like it?" he answer me "natural response".

After sucking a while, I asked his permission for entering - here the story begin. I lifted his legs and placed them onto my shoulder, exposing his tight virgin hole. Then placing my lil brother there and try to enter - forcefully. First try, he complained pain. I stop for a while and told him to relax and try to push toward me while I try to enter. He said, okay try. Second try, still same, his tight hole wouldn't allowed me to enter. After few attempt, i asked him to change position - later known to me as the Reverse Cowboy style. When he try to push himself in, I also try to push myself into him. Like before, he "aiyok, aiyok" me and say painful. I cancel the plan. and continue with frotting instead. I assumed that we are not ready and doesn't have much knowledge in this field yet. We end it by frotting and sleep ourselves through the night hugging each other till morning. Attempt failed, epic failed.

The reason I cancel it is because I remember in Nifty it was written "don't force your partner to have sex if he felt pain" I scared that the sex won't be beautiful and instead will traumatized him. I also never thought of bottoming for him because I - just like him, never bottom before. It took us long time before we experience our first anal.

Conclusion: Later on, I found out, rimming is important to make sure your partner relax.
                   Use lubricant. apply more if still can't enter.
                   Always relax.

P/s: No, this blog is not going toward erotic story direction. This is my experience..... Envy those who have "tunjuk ajar" from more knowledgeable people - at least they have a good advice or even amali.

 Anyway, happy Easter guys and guess what? it's Friday!! Have a nice weekend!
Justin LionFever!!! Happy belated birthday ya!!

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Quote of the day:

"the feeling of LOVE will not always on the highest point of the hills. sometimes, the feeling might go down, but that is still the process of LOVE"

Jay