Cloudy mind - Thx guys

He is going back today. I keep on having the urge to give him a call. My heart telling me, if I start to call him, all the effort will go down the drain. We promised to be friends, to keep in touch, yet, for me, it is impossible without hiding my real feeling. Even if we continue to contacted each other, it will just provide me a fake hope. 

Thanks everyone for your concern.

What is this feeling? It is the side effect? I had been woke up very early lately, around 3. Sitting in front of my laptop doing nothing, keep on refreshing the blogs to check out on the updates of other blogs. It'd been the only thing I'm interested to do now. Clicking on the news update in Facebook, to check on friend's status update. 

For the past 72 hours, I don't have the appetite to eat. Drinking only waters to avoid dehydration. I try to eat, but in the end, everything will be vomited out. Dunno why lately everything tasted bad. Today I will try the new porridge shop and have a taste on their porridge.  

Unlike myself, I'd been giving good advice to my friend when they broke up, yet easier say than done, i seem not to be able to swallow my own medicine. Being gay among the straight people is hard. I have no one to turn to say out my feeling inside me. I can't tell them I just broke up with another guy, I can't tell my family members that I just broke up with another guy. But, I am doing fine, I guess. Thanks to this blog, bit by bit I can say it out. 

Reading your guys' blog had been interesting and fun. Don't worry guys. I love you all. I will be fine. Positive thinking, positive thinking. I won't go take drugs or alcohol (I never had one).   

I remember Bravebear once said something in my comment, it will be stated below in my quotes of the day.   

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Quote of the day:

"想要忘记一段感情，方法永远只有一个：时间和新欢。 

要是時间和新欢也不能让你忘记一段感情，  

原因只有一个： 时间不够长，新欢不够好。"

张小娴

 Translate:

"In order to forget a relationship, there is only one method : times and new love. If the time and new love can't let you forget the relationship, there is only 1 reason, the time is not long enough, the new love is not good enough"

Amyblog 

"I think the best medicine in terms of break ups is to have rational thinking. To snap out of the misery and know that when there is an end there is also a new beginning. In other words, a positive mind." 

Bravebear