Broke up

Inspired by Tuls' entry

3 years is not a short time period. I had been trying my best to keep this relationship going, but look like I am the only one trying to keep it. Well I think for the best of both side, it is fair to give either side times to see and think about what our future should be like. Maybe this is what "doubt" is called.

I am tired, very tired and it was the toughest decision I made when I suggested the breaking up. I loved him so much that I am willing to let him go. If one day he decided to walk with me instead of being led by me, then I am sure we do have hope and future.

The whole day feels very weird. My timetable usually revolves around him, calling him in the morning to ensure he woke up and not late to work. Calling him during lunch as he do have the tendency to skip it. Calling him in the night time to report our daily activities. This had been my daily routine for past 2 years. However, today, I didn't do any of those and the day goes very slowly, tormenting my feeling and heart. No, I didn't delete his number because no point. I already memorized his numbers.

This sacrifice is something I have to do and of course regret is there. It's just like, I am keeping a bird in a cage restricting its freedom, I should let it fly and if it returns back to me, then only I know, we are fated and meant to be together. If it didn't, I am doing ourselves a favor by not only freeing it but also freeing myself in the process.

Oh ya, thx everyone for your concern, it may be hard, but I promised I won't do anything stupid.

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Quote of the days:

"A relationship is a journey to be walked by two
and not to be led by one"

Ex

"if you love that someone.. let them go..if they leave and never come back, they are not destined to be with you..."

 Tuls      

 "if u love someone, but have doubts, shud let them go if u were meant to be, u will still cross path one day... 

Kidz