Saturday, April 30, 2011

Fairy tales - other point of view

For those who loves fairy tales - the one that ends up happily ever after.... pls dun kill me after reading this entry. Hehehe

Just for fun... din mean to kill your childhood....

When kids come back home late at night, ever wonder who is their role model in doing so? Taa daa - Cinderella.

When kids walk around the house half naked and act like monkeys (sometime applicable in classroom) who do they learn that from? Tarzan

If there are increases of more thieves.... we only have Aladdin to blame - he is the king....

If kids are lazy and love to sleep around.... all the time well I give you the clue on who to blame to - Sleeping Beauty

Howbout the idea of orgy? Thats right!! Snow White lives with 7 guys!!!

One last thing... it is not really fairy tales though - if you think Superman is a bad role model because he wears his underwear outside, then you know nothing yet. Batman drives 320 km/hr!

Not funny right? Well happy week end guys! Guess what! It is the last day of April!! Tomorrow is Labor Day!!

Pls share your view on fairy tales or superheroes "fakes" too - if you have any..... hahahahahahaha

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Quote of the days:

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does."
Ultraman Jino 

Friday, April 29, 2011

This is a TRAGEDY!!!!

Good news and bad news....

First good news (at least for me)... I would like to say "syabas" for the TM for fixing my line.... 72 hours and it was fixed in 24 hours. Feel very thankful!!

Secondly bad news - to most of the bloggers and blog readers.... I dunno if you guys realized it already or not, please read here

This is a tragedy!!! I dunno what will happen in the future.... I hope he will continue writing, or create a new blog? His blog had been one of the earliest blog that I followed.

Below are the blogs that i followed religiously and will have a very bad day or feeling guilty if I don't read their posting. Starting from the very first blog I followed till the one I read recently.

Pluboy Eric + Simonlover> Will.I.am + JerryKiat + Sky> Tuls + Calvin J + Aaron Ng> Bravebear + Pikey Chan> ....... > LMO + Deicidal


Subsequently, I know about other blogs when I read from the previous blogs. For all the blogs that i put in my bloglist, I really follow all of them and nothing excite me more than seeing the updates, reading em' and commenting on em'. I always look out on quotes - some are meaningful, deep and purely motivating while  some are funny to the max and can help me to forget my problems (even if for a while).

Anyway, lets all hope for the best for our beloved Simonlover!!! He still owe me likes 2 more parts of karma sutra.... the other 3 C's....... more Singaporean hunks (dun care if overdose though)...... those visits to massage place...... and so lots more

I hoped this is just a prank..........

Some might tell me.... "Get a life!" but... this is part of my life, the only part that I can be honest with myself, at least at my own feeling.

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Quote of the days:
Though I want to be in loved but I rather stay single than to have someone who takes relationship lightly!"
Ray Brixton 

"Eng Hao died! The end!
Tulsie  

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Internet line..... GG....

My internet line GG (as in died)..... Don't know what happened, called TM liao and they said, they will try to fixed the problem within 72 hours.

This afternoon a very heavy rain happened at my area. After a very loud thunder and strong lightning, my line gone cuckoo after that - both PWR and WLAN light still on. DSL light totally off. My house phone also die liao.

Hope they will fix it as soon as possible.....

p.s : GG is a slang used by ppl nowaday in dota (especially in garena) when the game is over... it stands for good game... in normal conversation, GG can be used as "habis" liao, "can't be save" etc etc etc....

p.s.s: Ash, try send me an email to: Whizsage@gmail.com


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Quote of the day:
"I believe people who are so eager to get in love should also understand and prepare the pain and hurt that comes with it."
Pikey  

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Sissy and gay same meh???

All sissies are gay? All gay are sissy? This is one of the most common misconception by the society. For example, from 1 entry I remember a brother of someone mentioned "actually i knew you were a pondan when we were younger

Sissy come from the word sister - refers to guy who exhibit effeminate behaviour. However this word also refers to guy who is weak and cowardly. For example please refer to the picture below, can you identify which of these guys are the real "sissy"? I am not saying muscular hunky people are sissy, just that we shouldn't judge a book by its cover - hope those hunky, 6-pack abs, marvelicious muscular reader out there don't be angry, k.... hahahaha                       


In Malaysia, especially the Muslim (although not all) looks down on the sissies and treat them as some kind of disease. This is to be proven by the recent news from Terengganu. Please read Boot camp in Malaysia for effeminate boys slammed (Posted by Deicidal earlier) - I was offended by the news. In Sarawak, this news occur. 


Now talking about counseling, what type of counseling do you want to give? Counseling on job - can be accepted. Counseling on behaviour changes - not a good idea. Counseling on converting the gay sissy to be straight - good luck on that, you only waste your money. 


Not all sissy are gay and they can be straight too. Their action are pretty gentle, which looks quite effeminate to others. Deep inside, they are just being themselves and pretty sure that they are not gay. Let this character in a movie give you an insight of such person. 


As conclusion: Not all gays are sissy and not all sissies are gay.

Last of all, for you who have such friend or family member, accept them as who they are. They suffer more than us. I attribute this song to them "Born This Way" by Lady Gaga played by Maria Aragon. Just be yourself, you are good just the way you are, even if the society rejects you, knows that you are never alone!!!

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Quote of the day:
"Sometimes I just wish that life is like a high school workbook, whereby questions on the front pages and then flip to the back for the answers. "
Chen Xing 

Monday, April 25, 2011

Sikit pun tak significant / Officially 26

My existence is not significant.

If you want people to remember your birthday, you will let Facebook do the reminder.
I don't.
Today, I am officially 26.

Usually today, I will get the message and wishes from him. But since I am no longer an important person in his life, I don't think I will get it anymore... since it had been a couple of hours after 12. But, if I am to put myself into his shoes, will I call him to wish him a happy birthday? I don't know. We'd moved on.

When I was younger, my family totally forgotten about my birthday too. Each time it reached May, my mum said "OMG, we missed your birthday (again) this year!!!" All this continue until my sister was born and when my mum forgot about her birthday once, she was quite sad and was even sadder when she received my birthday wish sms - as I am the only one who remember. She then memorized everyone's birthday and will remind my mum when the time is near. It works... since then.

When I say my existence is not significant, it is not meant to be pessimistic.

One more myth on my birthday:~
I had lost my IC two time consecutively for past 2 years - on my birthday. But I think I will break this curse this year.

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Quote of the day (my own quote =P)
"Love start with a smile, survive for that smile, gone when the smile lost, but can be retrieve when the smile is found again"
"To you, I may never existed, but I will always remember you. I will be there when you need me the most, protecting you like a shadow. No, I don't need your thanks, but instead reward me with your smile and led a good life. Only then, I can enter the oblivion, satisfied"
Whiz

Friday, April 22, 2011

Failed Epic

Hmmm.... I am not good in writing stuff like this. Dun throw stone at me ya....

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What happened when 2 virgins try to have sex together? This is my experience with my ex.

Few weeks after staying together in my 7th sem (3 years ago), we decided to do "that". Unlike now, that time, we have limitations:
1. In Bintulu there is no places called Guardian or Watson.
2. I know about the existence of condom but not lubricant.
3. I don't know other gay course mate or friend, so no reference to ask.
4. My only source of sexual education is from Nifty.org.
5. If some of you remember, the porn tat time are mostly in form of short video clips. (usually is 4 pieces of 10 sec clips)
Meaning, there are lack of information and preparation.

Tat time, i dun know anythg about fingering and rimming. Ya, I was a noob 20's guy tat time.

Tat night, as I remember, it was somewhere during holidays - Hari Raya holiday (if not mistaken) when most people went back. As I said before, usually people will knock into our room, so purposely choose a time when most people are not around.

We agreed on me being the top that time (We found out later that he is a better top) - 1st mistake (I guess). The reason is because I had been acting top in many field - when ordering food, i always initiate a movement and making the decision or should I say I am the more active partner.  He is the passive one and i had been treating him like a princess.

So we started with a foreplay like usual. He lies there while I put on all the action. I start by rubbing our nose, then closed our eyes then kissing intimately. I remember our first kiss was like a primary student kiss but then slowly it evolved and we start to upgrade our technique. Maybe I was extra nervous that night, my breathing was faster than usual - knowing that we wanted to do our anal for the first time, but it is not the first time we do non-penetrative "sex". He was also nervous because I never felt him breathing that fast before - except during our first passionate kiss where we literally stopped breathing for few seconds.

I slowly go for his neck - one of his sensitive parts. His fair skin can really leave an obvious red-purplish marks easily. After my house incident, I try to be gentle a bit there. Still on top of him, while kissing his neck area (suckling will be a better word), I slowly moved my tongue to his chest and start to go to his nipple area. He usually complaint not to suck his nipple for too long because he found it....too ticklish. After a few moaning, and while i suckled his nipples, his hands try to push me away I think it signaled that it is enough sucking there and want me to move further - in fact I like to hear his voice when I suck his nipple, twirling my tongue around his nipple and let him struggle to push me away. Then i start kissing my way from his nipple toward his naval. He is very slim! When my tongue move toward his naval through his stomach, he release the most arousing "ahh" sound/moan. And his gesture and stomach movement, it aroused me even more. i don't spend too long there, then moving backward a bit, I took off his pants (yea, he dun wear underwear at night) then my shirt too.

Stroking his lil brother for a while, I enter the stick into my mouth blowing it. He liked my swirling technique - where i used my tongue to move his stick around my mouth - it always works and he will moan each time I do that. I also liked to deep throat him and each time I do that, he will pulled my head so that I can take it deeper. He tried his best to delay his cumming. but usually, he will released some pre-cum. then play dirty by pushing my head away. I remember that night I asked him  - "what happened? you don't like it?" he answer me "natural response".

After sucking a while, I asked his permission for entering - here the story begin. I lifted his legs and placed them onto my shoulder, exposing his tight virgin hole. Then placing my lil brother there and try to enter - forcefully. First try, he complained pain. I stop for a while and told him to relax and try to push toward me while I try to enter. He said, okay try. Second try, still same, his tight hole wouldn't allowed me to enter. After few attempt, i asked him to change position - later known to me as the Reverse Cowboy style. When he try to push himself in, I also try to push myself into him. Like before, he "aiyok, aiyok" me and say painful. I cancel the plan. and continue with frotting instead. I assumed that we are not ready and doesn't have much knowledge in this field yet. We end it by frotting and sleep ourselves through the night hugging each other till morning. Attempt failed, epic failed.

The reason I cancel it is because I remember in Nifty it was written "don't force your partner to have sex if he felt pain" I scared that the sex won't be beautiful and instead will traumatized him. I also never thought of bottoming for him because I - just like him, never bottom before. It took us long time before we experience our first anal.

Conclusion: Later on, I found out, rimming is important to make sure your partner relax.
                   Use lubricant. apply more if still can't enter.
                   Always relax.

P/s: No, this blog is not going toward erotic story direction. This is my experience..... Envy those who have "tunjuk ajar" from more knowledgeable people - at least they have a good advice or even amali.

 Anyway, happy Easter guys and guess what? it's Friday!! Have a nice weekend!
Justin LionFever!!! Happy belated birthday ya!!

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Quote of the day:
"the feeling of LOVE will not always on the highest point of the hills. sometimes, the feeling might go down, but that is still the process of LOVE"
Jay

            

Monday, April 18, 2011

My roomies during my stay in the Campus

I try to resume my "unintentionally" post but, it had been 1 of the biggest regret in my life and I guess I will only write it when I am ready. 

I had wrote this entry for long time but haven't found the time to post it after the break-up. Thanks to Tulsy, I got my chance to post this entry. *Hugs

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In my campus, we had a system where 2 roomies will stay together for at least 1 year. and in my 4 years of degree time, I have 4 different EFFEMINATE roomies. 

1st year:
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During my 4 years of stay in the campus, I had been staying with 4 different sissies. First sissy, is a hunky Indian but among the Indian, he is the sissiest - he bought fair and lovely to whiten his face (never work) and go to the extent of shaving his chest hair (consider as weird by all his Indian friends because chest hair is a symbol of manliness/manchoness according to one of my friend), however, after 2 years of influence from his peer, he tried to be manly.

Funniest moment would be when he straightened his hair. I mean, most of my coursemate found it is unnecessary  because he look great with his curly hair and the straight hair.... tak betul lar. He is straight by the way. Not gay.

My first year was filled with laughter and I think he is quite an interesting individual. (I nvr thought of being gay at all that time)

2nd year
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Second year, I stayed with my senior. He is one of the peers that we called "ah gua" in our campus. He only entered "ah gua" mode when his friends are around and they don't mind showing their effeminism to anyone. However, when his friends are not around, he was just being cool like most of the people in campus. He even hide his "sexy" voice when he spoke to me.

1 of my friend helped me to move my stuff to my room. After he saw my room mate, he got a chill in his spine and never visited me to my room anymore. None of my friend did anyway =.="

Oh ya, he is gay. Reported from a reliable source (or maybe is just another man who have sex with man?). Nothing intimate happened between us.

(I am in a confused mode that time and I found out I already fell in love with a guy - my ex)


3rd year
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Third year, I was in the same room with the campus's Queen. His cat walk beaten most of the girls, very slim and was crowned Queen of the Night during the Prom night by the students - however he did not won it officially due to strong Islamic stance of our attending lecturer (yeah this is Malaysia).

He's openly gay or should I say, he never treat himself as guy and insist that God is being unfair and is making a great joke out of him - he's born male and would have prefer if he was born a female.

We entered UPM together and since our first meeting I already knew him - i.e guys who he liked and so on. He even got surprised when I have this talk on guys he liked. Yup, we have a great talk - nothg funny happen though (I mean I didn't do anythg over the boundary with this room mate compare to the one I am going to have on the following years).

This room mate of mine in fact is grouped in good-looking guy. But he liked to wear dresses and high heels. His feminism even beat most of the female coursemate I know.

The last time I heard about this room mate is he is currently working in Putrajaya and I heard from a friend that time, he wore a baju kebaya with a group of friends. I think he must be in quite a happy condition now. Oh ya, he dunno I am gay though. I had been very discreet.......

I got all these 3 room mate out of accident - arranged by the College admin.

4th year
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Final year, I chose my own room mate, my ex. Note that, this happened after I confessed to him. Usually the college won't entertain students who want to change room, but I swindled my way through (that will be another story). Ya, 1 year of anything you can think of happened in that room - my first time exploring the gay universe (beside that, there are few failed epics which we had there before, maybe I will write it for tomorrow post?). But, even though we were in the same room, it's hard to have the space for ourselves- our coursemate usually visit us for assignments and etc etc etc.

Some people would say that he is quite effeminate however, 1 of my female friend said that his action is something we called "manja". I agreed and I found it cute. That had been the greatest year of my life.

So what is your experience with effeminate people? I don't have any negative impression on them because I had been living with them.