2 Free Big Breakfast Last Day!!!

1 more day to go till it end!!! Or shud I say 11 more hours.

Well I remember reading about it once in Voice it out, but then I totally forgotten about it. This morning, while checking though Facebook one of my friend posted on his wall about it. Thx Jared!!! If not I totally forgotten about this promotion. Reach the McD around 9:50 and the queue was so damn long. Waiting for 1 hour baru sampai my turn. Anyway. It'd been my first meal since past 84 hours. For those who want to go, can print out the picture below:

Cloudy mind - Thx guys

He is going back today. I keep on having the urge to give him a call. My heart telling me, if I start to call him, all the effort will go down the drain. We promised to be friends, to keep in touch, yet, for me, it is impossible without hiding my real feeling. Even if we continue to contacted each other, it will just provide me a fake hope. 

Thanks everyone for your concern.

What is this feeling? It is the side effect? I had been woke up very early lately, around 3. Sitting in front of my laptop doing nothing, keep on refreshing the blogs to check out on the updates of other blogs. It'd been the only thing I'm interested to do now. Clicking on the news update in Facebook, to check on friend's status update. 

For the past 72 hours, I don't have the appetite to eat. Drinking only waters to avoid dehydration. I try to eat, but in the end, everything will be vomited out. Dunno why lately everything tasted bad. Today I will try the new porridge shop and have a taste on their porridge.  

Unlike myself, I'd been giving good advice to my friend when they broke up, yet easier say than done, i seem not to be able to swallow my own medicine. Being gay among the straight people is hard. I have no one to turn to say out my feeling inside me. I can't tell them I just broke up with another guy, I can't tell my family members that I just broke up with another guy. But, I am doing fine, I guess. Thanks to this blog, bit by bit I can say it out. 

Reading your guys' blog had been interesting and fun. Don't worry guys. I love you all. I will be fine. Positive thinking, positive thinking. I won't go take drugs or alcohol (I never had one).   

I remember Bravebear once said something in my comment, it will be stated below in my quotes of the day.   

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Quote of the day:

"想要忘记一段感情，方法永远只有一个：时间和新欢。 

要是時间和新欢也不能让你忘记一段感情，  

原因只有一个： 时间不够长，新欢不够好。"

张小娴

 Translate:

"In order to forget a relationship, there is only one method : times and new love. If the time and new love can't let you forget the relationship, there is only 1 reason, the time is not long enough, the new love is not good enough"

Amyblog 

"I think the best medicine in terms of break ups is to have rational thinking. To snap out of the misery and know that when there is an end there is also a new beginning. In other words, a positive mind." 

Bravebear 

Broke up

Inspired by Tuls' entry

3 years is not a short time period. I had been trying my best to keep this relationship going, but look like I am the only one trying to keep it. Well I think for the best of both side, it is fair to give either side times to see and think about what our future should be like. Maybe this is what "doubt" is called.

I am tired, very tired and it was the toughest decision I made when I suggested the breaking up. I loved him so much that I am willing to let him go. If one day he decided to walk with me instead of being led by me, then I am sure we do have hope and future.

The whole day feels very weird. My timetable usually revolves around him, calling him in the morning to ensure he woke up and not late to work. Calling him during lunch as he do have the tendency to skip it. Calling him in the night time to report our daily activities. This had been my daily routine for past 2 years. However, today, I didn't do any of those and the day goes very slowly, tormenting my feeling and heart. No, I didn't delete his number because no point. I already memorized his numbers.

This sacrifice is something I have to do and of course regret is there. It's just like, I am keeping a bird in a cage restricting its freedom, I should let it fly and if it returns back to me, then only I know, we are fated and meant to be together. If it didn't, I am doing ourselves a favor by not only freeing it but also freeing myself in the process.

Oh ya, thx everyone for your concern, it may be hard, but I promised I won't do anything stupid.

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Quote of the days:

"A relationship is a journey to be walked by two
and not to be led by one"

Ex

"if you love that someone.. let them go..if they leave and never come back, they are not destined to be with you..."

 Tuls      

 "if u love someone, but have doubts, shud let them go if u were meant to be, u will still cross path one day... 

Kidz 

Starting anew - GYM!

Starting my single life, I want to make a drastic makeover. No, not changing my sex or doing plastic surgery. I am gay but I am not "ah kua".

My physique.... How shud I say I am.... If William relate himself to Suneo, then I think, I shud relate myself to DORAEMON!!! Short and round. I am still thin when I was in form 6. which is about 7 years ago. I start to get rounder when I start my bachelor year.

So exactly, as i promised myself in my new year resolution, i will go to gym! 

The gym that I intend to go will be the one in Berjaya Times Square - Sportstoto Fitness Center

Reasons?

1. Easier for me to access from home (Serdang). In fact I also planning to go to Celebrity Fitness in Midvalley. 

2.Cheap?! - Student rate, RM80 /mth + RM 25/mth for towels rental.

3.I am desperate to reduce my weight.

4.  They have 3 different classes (studio) depending on timetable for yoga, body combat (dancing) and cycling. 

I am still new in gym-ing. Never go to one before. Would really appreciate if anyone can guide me in this matter. If any of you ever heard any negative point on this gym that I want to go, please leave me a comment.

I am planning to go in May or June, April is too occupied and too sudden. 

 

In the end?

Today is in fact our 3rd year anniversary. We have a surprise "gift" for each other.

Currently he is in the town, arrived this morning to attend a seminar in Shah Alam. But I am not gonna visit him. If I am gonna to mentioned him in my next posts, I will use the word "ex" instead of "PP". He is my first ex. Technically, I am single now. All these years, i really have to thank him for everything. Don't get me wrong, we are still friend. Everything does not change, the only thing that change is our status, for now. Last night, in our 2 hours conversation, we agree to a conclusion:

1.If any of us found someone new within the time period when we are so far apart, that person is not to be treated as 3rd party, and if that person become the new bf, no objection should be given by the other party.

2.When we'd the chance to meet, the relationship is still friend (and fuck buddy).

Fact about us:

1. We never go beyond penetrative sex till last November.

2. He looks more like a bottom from the appearance but, in bed it is different story.

3. We should have broke up in second year when I come for Master, instead I strongly suggested for the LDR. We give it a try. 

4. We were still virgin when we started. 

*I have climbed the tree to get the apple. I reached the apple and when I try to pluck it, it remained there, unable to pluck it. Maybe I should look for new tree? Maybe I should wait till the apple is ripened to get it?

I knew it very well, if I am to meet him now, I am going to burst... ... ...

Which 1 are you?

Lets imagine, your true one / true love is an apple that grow on a very tall tree - and coincidentally, there is just 1 apple on that tree and you want to get the apple. When I say it is a very tall tree, it means it is very tall. Now imagine, there are few peoples in your group and all of you are craving for the apple, then there will be a race to get the apple.

So based on the picture, which of these people are you?

"Those who fight for their happiness" - Those who already have their target marked and don't mind working hard to achieve his goal. He won't look down and scare to fall instead will just climbed up regardless how tall the tree is (the difficulty) and try to get his apple.

"Those who scare to take risk" - Those who also climbed hard up to the tree. When the target is within reach, he looked down from the tree stem and see how tall he'd climbed. He chicken out and dare not to climb any further for fear of falling down. They'd try to get their aim, but don't dare to grab the chances because they scare if it is the right choice. What if the relationship failed? What if "he" is not  "The one"?

"Those who is unfaithful" - Eventhough the happiness is within reach, these people looks for third party or fourth party as their "reserve". Also known as Casanova or playboy. At the end, he might find his "apple"

"Those who sacrificed others" - In order to get their apple, they will play dirty and step on other people. So, in pursuing ur "the one" will u hurt othrt ppl in the process?

"Those who take shortcut" - My bad here. Should be "Those who take easy way without working hard"

"Those who just hoped"

Oh ya, happy weekend guys, am going to Genting to meet a friend who is currently on holiday from Bintulu. 

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Quote of the day:

“Don't wait for your fairy godmother to appear and make your wish come true... Sometimes you need to BE your own fairy godmother.”

Jason Is A He

Earthquake lagi.

Another earthquake hit the Asian region after previous earthquake hit Japan. This time, it hit Myanmar - our neighbouring country. It happened just few moments ago.

The news report are as following:

"A U.S. monitoring agency says a 7.0—magnitude earthquake has hit north-eastern Myanmar.

The quake struck on Thursday night near the Southeast Asian country’s borders with Thailand and Laos, about 70 miles (110 kilometers) from the northern Thai city of Chiang Rai.

The U.S. Geological Survey says it struck at a depth of 140 miles (230 kilometers) - exceptionally deep. But it could be felt as far away as Bangkok, where buildings swayed.

The Pacific Tsunami Warning Centre says it was located too far inland to generate a destructive wave."

The  Hindu

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"An earthquake with a preliminary magnitude of 7.0 struck Myanmar Thursday, the U.S. Geological Survey said.

The quake hit in eastern Myanmar, about 70 miles (110 km) from Chiang Rai, Thailand, the survey reported.There were no immediate reports of damage or injuries.Earthquakes of that magnitude are capable of causing major damage, especially when they are relatively shallow. The Geological Survey initially said the quake had a depth of 142 miles (230km), but it later revised its estimate to say the quake was 6 miles (10 km) deep, putting it fairly close to the surface.A destructive tsunami is not expected, the Pacific Tsunami Warning Center said. In advice to government agencies, the center said the quake "is located too far inland and too deep inside the earth to generate a tsunami in the Indian Ocean."

CNN

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Luckily, the earthquake is too far inland thus it does not initiate a Tsunami.

Talking about Myanmar, most of us don't really have much idea what they have. Unlike when we talk about Thailand, most of us would be remind of the graceful transvetite - their beauty beat most of the ladies.
When Myanmar come into my mind, the first thing that hit my mind is - Burma (the name it used to be called), the military rules and Aung San Suu Kyi.

The country is bordered by Bangladesh, Thailand China India and Laos.

As I also know not much about the country - I thought the government rule is supposed to be very very very strict with very limited entertainment available - unlike Thailand, Philippine or Vietnam. Well I am wrong. below is an example of celebrities from Myanmar

Sai Sai Khan Hlaing

male hip hop artist from Yangoon

DOB: 10th April 1979 (soon)

Anyway, hope that there will be minimum casualty and thank God i am born in Malaysia a country with very small risk of natural disaster.